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[telepathy]

to gilia

[somatosensory]

To Gilia, then.

No matter what happens, you know I won't think less of you. I'm proud of you, and of being yours.

[telepathy]

i havent said what the challenge is for

[ would he still feel that way, knowing that she is only defending her pride? that she does not want to admit that john doesn't need her forgiveness, when she has already forgiven him? because she cannot help but forgive him? but she accepted the challenge anyway, claims to defend against needing to forgive, all for the chance at being his family. the chance to earn the love that she didn't feel from him while she was searching for murphy. ]

[somatosensory]

You wouldn't have issued it if it weren't for good reason.

[telepathy]

he issued it

[somatosensory]

Did he?

[telepathy]

to earn my forgiveness

[somatosensory]

It matters to him, then. Enough to do this for you.

[telepathy]

he didnt need to

[somatosensory]

No, but he knows this is your way. And he respects it.

So pay back that sentiment by fighting well. But for the record, this doesn't count as our trip to the Jungle.

[telepathy]

i know
but you dont understand
he didnt need to challenge me to be forgiven
i have nothing to give him in victory that he does not already have
i accepted anyway

[somatosensory]

I think you have plenty to give him.

[telepathy]

you are not listening

[somatosensory]

You love him.
You've forgiven him.
You're fighting him anyway. What else am I missing?

[telepathy]

it is dishonorable to accept a challenge when he has nothing to win but what has already been given

and it is weak to forgive the injury before he has done anything to earn it

you should not be proud of me

[somatosensory]

By that logic our duel was just as dishonorable. ( just so they're clear. )

You're doing what you need to do in order to find peace, Mavis. John understands that. Respects it.

And historically, when has you telling me what to do ever worked out like you hoped?

[telepathy]

that is not true

[somatosensory]

You're right, I'm very biddable.

[telepathy]

i would not have given myself to you

[somatosensory]

No, but you loved me all the same.

[telepathy]

yes
but feeling it is not the same as surrendering to it
there was something to be won
unless you are calling it nothing to have me

[somatosensory]

No, I misunderstood.
Having you is everything.

[telepathy]

[ she believes him. it feels right, seeing as he's everything to her, too. she hopes he'll feel the same when she's not all he has, the way he is all she has.

but that's not the point here. and they have already exchanged sentiments. there is still the point at hand, which he now understands: ]

i am all thats left of them
and i am a disappointment

[somatosensory]

You survived, Mavis.

[telepathy]

someone else should have