( on the one hand, he knows it would end poorly — because it can't not. they would chafe against the strictures of his home, assuming they consented to come with him at all.
on the other hand, it is still his home, for all its flaws. will he ever not yearn for it? )
It would be difficult. ( which is only marginally better than admitting he doesn't know the answer. )
Yes, that is perhaps the best word for it, isn't it?
[ Though unbeknowst, it is just that. They would not be happy, save Sweeney, structured into a restrained life of harsh living they did not understand. ]
.... If it is not to be, here, and we find a way to our homes - you are welcome in my court, and in my household. Even if you did not stay, which I would understand naturally, our land is harsh, our ways unforgiving to outsiders, I would send you gladly with letters of introduction to any land you wish so you, Mavis and Murphy could establish a home with my support.
I try. It is just hard that — [ She can say that. ] — I have had a great deal of power, all my life, and so often, it has terrified me too much to use it. Of doing it wrongly. Of disappointing everyone around me.
Now I wish I could, to take care of so many here. So many need it, and I fear I can never do enough. But... maybe that is just living? Always thinking of what we could do.
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on the other hand, it is still his home, for all its flaws. will he ever not yearn for it? )
It would be difficult. ( which is only marginally better than admitting he doesn't know the answer. )
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[ Though unbeknowst, it is just that. They would not be happy, save Sweeney, structured into a restrained life of harsh living they did not understand. ]
.... If it is not to be, here, and we find a way to our homes - you are welcome in my court, and in my household. Even if you did not stay, which I would understand naturally, our land is harsh, our ways unforgiving to outsiders, I would send you gladly with letters of introduction to any land you wish so you, Mavis and Murphy could establish a home with my support.
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but it's still a lot, and definitely not the kind of decision he should be making rashly. )
I'll think about it. ( talk to mavis, at least. as harsh as gilia claims her land to be, it can't be any worse than the desert. )
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[ Times when not having her throne sucks: when she wants to give her friends presents and most of all, security and a home. ]
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( more than she realizes. more than many of them deserve, probably — not that he expects she'd believe it. )
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Now I wish I could, to take care of so many here. So many need it, and I fear I can never do enough. But... maybe that is just living? Always thinking of what we could do.
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( it's a rare person that wants to use their power to harm, at least in the beginning. the ones that do tend to be broken to begin with. )
I'd like to hear more of your home, one day.